The Paycheck

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Most of our days we go through life so fast that we don’t even notice them passing.  Especially in light of the holidays… working, raising kids, maintaining the house, figuring out how to pay for Christmas… it’s all a blur.  Those days are the filler of our lives.  “What’s new with you?”  “Oh, you know, just carrying on.”

But there are other days too.  The days everyone hopes to avoid, yet everyone has.

Everyone knows what I’m talking about.  Unexpected tragedies.  Burdens that almost break your back.  Worries that rob you of sleep.  Family Discord.  Anger.  Pain.  Resentment.  Fear.

I woke up this morning, worrying (again) about something that I’ve worried about for so long, it’s  automatic.  My Achilles heel.  Yet for all the times I’ve given it my attention – freely smothering it with my hard-earned energy – that worry has never come to pass.

I am – literally – worrying about something non-existent.  What happened in the past, what could happen in the future, yet has no bearing on the immediate present.

I’ve cried to God about it so often that I, myself, am tired of hearing my own complaint!

I thought of everyone else.  Doing the same thing I do.  Just trying to make a living, taking care of our families, getting as many errands done in one day as possible, and attempting to hold it together one more day.  Meeting the demands of everyday life.

You know.  Scrabbling around gathering nuts.  (Yeah, the squirrels do it.  We do it.  Every bug and plant does it.  In short… every living thing is concerned with the same thing.  That constant need to push back at the struggle of survival doesn’t take a vacation for losing your job, the kid’s measles, or home repairs.)

You know what?  This is the price of life.

So.  If this is the price of life, then what is the paycheck?

Sweet kisses on my face from Hubby.  Kids.  Sisters.  The dog.  (’nuff said).  Family!  Who can describe the connection with family?  Love.

Then there’s music.  Oh, happiness – it’s that time of year when every choral/instrumental group performs the most  wondrous sounds.

Dark, cold nights spent cuddled under piles of soft blankets.  Dog snores from the bedside.

Christmas movies.  Driving around and viewing all the sparkling decorations.  Holiday scenes made out of gingerbread and candies.  Eggnog.

A warm bath.  Good books and good neighbors.  Ice sculptures of incredible beauty.  Snow.  Crystal clear night skies, sparkling white and blue days.

Green!  (There’s always green somewhere.)

The scent of sugar from the Tea Olive plant on my windowsill.  Jasmine flowers.

Yes, the price of living is high.  But the paycheck is pretty darn great.

What are some of the rewards included in your paycheck?

 

“Joy and sorrow are the light and shade of life; without light and shade no picture is clear.”  Hazrat Inayat Khan

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